i just got back from work and im doing really shitty. i just feel like shit and everything and its just wondeful. i dk y. i suppose it's becuz i think i actually might like a decent guy bu it would never work, so its just frustrating, i cant wait till the weekend comes every week just so i can see ryan but none of it is worth it cuz nothing is going to come of it. amber sears is always teasing us and saying we should go on a date, but yea. i dropped a whole thing of peas everywhere. and then this older gentleman came up and was like "hey! who peed on the floor?" i was just like haha thats a good one. cuz i mean it was good it just sucked cuz i was embarrased cuz i was the one who dropped them everywhere. and yea so that was great, and then for the rest of the night everyone was like o dont drop that o be careful o dont spill. my nickname is butterfingers after all so i suppose. every single weekend i drop something, its just wonderful. tonight was my first huge drop. and ya chris sokol was driving me insane like friggin normal. i dk i just really do not feel good and like i could cry, i all most broke down like five times during work but i kept it in, i got asked like twenty times if i was ok, and i was just like yea im totally friggin fine. and yea just great great great. well i think im gonna go cuz im tired and im on my moms lap top so yea. nighty night

-missy-