look at this, its not even been 5 hours since i've been home and im all ready friggin depressed, i hate this, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. the worst thing is i dont know what the hell is wrong with me, all i know is for some reason i cant stop freaking out and i wont stop tearing up and crying. and im just getting so frustrated which makes me wanna cry even more cuz im all like grr and grrar and i cant take it. i should've never been born, everyones lives would be so much fucking easier if i wasnt here. my brother would've probably never got in trouble with the law, he would be married and have kids right now, my other brother (gary) probably would've never started drinking, and my parents would be off in the carribean on retirement or something, and my family would've been all wondeful and perfect, but no little miss me had to come and ruin everything. so many ppl would probably be better off without me, im just a big old burden on everyones life, thats me. i have no special qualities to report to this world, im just blank and full of nothing. im just a bunch of nothingness. ok i dont feel like typing anymore, god i wish i could see mike, o well i guess, i dont think he wanted to hang out tonight, im just gonna go and try and sleep or something, nighty night