grrrrrrrrthis has to be one of the worst days i have had in a long time!! ok, so i've been sick all week and theres a chance i could have mono, but i dont think i do. so i go to school today at lunch where i am told that i HAVE to drive with mr. bilse tonight no excuses. and i was like ummm. cuz i was supposed to work tonight, tomrrow morning and night, and sunday morning. and so i talked to my mom and i called my boss and told him that i have been sick and probably shoudlnt be working this weekend so he tells me to try and find ppl to work for me HA easier said then fricking done. so i couldnt find neone to work for me. so at this point a major emotional break down is happening i go back and talk to my mom and start crying in her office cuz i dont know what the hell to do. i call my boss back and tell him i couldnt find neone to work for me, and he was like ok. and then i had to drive from portage to lodi on the interstate after school. where i swear i all most killed us and grrrrrawr it was just mortifying and really bad. and then i come home and find a nasty message on my phone from one of the girls i work with and i was like awesome that makes my day a million times better. and then i get into it with my mom like a billion times. she just wont leave me alone and its like grrrr. and my love life is extremely shitty. cuz i dont know what the hell is going on. and hes just really fucking confusing, and god I HATE MEN!!!!!!!! 
omg and yea just horribly bad day. and i have to go to a stupid christmas party tomrrow that i DO NOT want to go to. cuz my moms gonna wanna go off and talk to all her relatives and ill be left sitting somewhere since i dont know like neone, and my brothers girlfriend is coming and i really dont like her. i dont know y i just dont. and gosh darn it~ I MISS MY DOG!!! 
she was always here for me to cuddle with when i was feeling like shit and now shes not here!! and i hate my dad cuz hes never home and is always drinking, and i cant talk to him, so its like i dont have a dad. and i dk. everything seems so messed up., and i have all this homework i need to get done and its just to much stress, i can only take so much. but i guess thats enough from me.
-missy-
